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Welcome To Fred

Chapter One

I found it in the back of a drawer in his roll-top desk. Not that I was looking for it. I was just cleaning out the desk. I didn't mind. In fact, I preferred it to cleaning out the closets, which Hannah was doing, or cataloging the furniture, the job Heidi had chosen.

It was a small ring-binder notebook, black cardboard with a white label. The printing on the label was definitely Dad's, a small and precise lettering from a hand that seemed to be more comfortable with cuneiform than the English alphabet. It read "The Matthew Cloud Lexicon of Practical Usage."

Intrigued, I flipped through it. There were tabbed dividers for each letter of the alphabet. Each page appeared to have a single entry consisting of a word and a definition. I flipped back to the beginning. The first entry was:

Adolescence: Insanity; a (hopefully) temporary period of emotional and mental imbalance. Symptoms: mood swings, melancholia, rampant idealism, insolvency. Subject takes everything too seriously, especially himself. Causes: parents, raging hormones. Known cures: longevity, homicide. Antidotes: levity, Valium.

That prompted a chuckle. I had no doubt this entry had been written while Jimmy Carter grinned from the Oval Office. I sat back in the swivel chair, for a welcome bit of reflection. Which was to be expected, seeing as how we were settling Dad's estate. Nostalgia traps were likely to be rampant in closets and drawers all over the house.

I suppose adolescence is somewhat like insanity. In both cases, isolation is sometimes seen as a method for limiting the damage. I suspected that in 1968, when I turned 12, my parents must have sensed the incipient stages of the dreaded malady. I could think of no other reason why they would have moved from metropolitan America to Fred, Texas.

I know you're dying to ask, so I might as well tell you right up front. Fred is located in East Texas, between Spurger and Caney Head. It looks different now, but at the time it spanned nine-tenths of a mile between city limit signs, and included six buildings of note: a general store, elementary school, a Baptist church, a hamburger joint, a service station, and the post office. The nearest movie theater was 16 miles south in Silsbee. The nearest mall appeared in the early 70's, forty miles south in Beaumont.

In many ways it was idyllic. There was nothing but pine woods and dirt roads to be explored, creeks to be splashed through and swam in, fresh air to suck into your lungs in an eternal draught. Since I was only 12 and had not yet succumbed to the symptoms, I loved it. But, by the time I hit 16, Fred's greatest assets had become, for me, its greatest liabilities. There was nothing but pine woods, dirt roads, and creeks.

As a 12-year-old, I reveled in the unruly semi-wildness of the Big Thicket. I delved pine thickets, ferreting out hidden sanctuaries in oil-company tracts, miles from any road. The lust for adventure shared by all young boys provided me with traveling companions.

Swaying 100 feet in the air at the top of a pine and surveying a green ocean, we were Columbus, devoutly seeking land after months at sea. Cresting the top of a limestone outcrop and finding a bottomless pool in an abandoned quarry, we were Balboa gazing in wonder upon the Pacific. Picking our way through a stagnant bayou, balanced precariously on moss-covered logs and leaping from one knot of ground to another, we were Marion Francis, the Swamp Fox, cleverly eluding the British once again. Following the meandering trail of a dried creek bed, we were Powell winding through the Grand Canyon.

But even in the passion of exploration, caught in the frantic surmise that we were probably the first humans to have ever seen a particular secluded hide-out (deduced from the absence of beer cans or other trash) I felt the subtle walls as real as stone between me and my companions.

For example, the names Balboa, Francis, and Powell meant nothing to them. Of course they knew of Columbus. After all, he had a day named after him to guarantee his immortality. One of my failings, academic success, was not likely to endear me to this crew.

Language was yet another plank in the scaffold of my isolation. My parents had taken great pains to weed ungrammatical habits out of their children, with mixed success. In my speech such phrases as "I done did," "I seen him," or "I ain't" were conspicuous by their absence. I discovered that Fredonians didn't trust anyone who talked differently.

But these differences paled against the Great Divider. We had moved to Fred because my father was the new pastor of the Baptist church. I was a preacher's kid. (Known as a PK among the cognoscenti.) Nothing is guaranteed to bring a spicy conversation or a racy joke to a dead halt like the arrival of the preacher's kid. I became as accustomed to seeing conversation die when I approached as a skunk expects the crowd to part when it walks through.

Nonetheless, I tolerated these inconveniences in my pre-adolescent state, glorying in the remote wilderness like a hermit. It was only when hormonal changes initiated the symptoms of the dreaded malady of adolescence that I began to languish rather than glory in this isolation from modern culture. The crude tree-house that had served variously as fort, ship, headquarters, prison, hideout, and throne, now did duty as a sanctuary of solitude to which I retreated to puzzle out this provincial culture and my place in it.

Many teenage boys would have loved such an environment; indeed, most native Fredonian teens thrived in it. With graceless effort they shot deer, snagged perch, played football, and rattled in pickups down dirt roads. George Jones and Tammy Wynette oozed from their pores like sweat. Under black felt Stetsons they sported haircuts as flat as an aircraft carrier. Pointed boots with taps announced their coming as they approached and leather belts with names stamped on the back proclaimed their identity as they departed. They dipped snuff, spitting streams like some ambulatory species of archer fish. Their legs fit around a horse as naturally as a catcher's fist nestles in his mitt. They split logs and infinitives, chopped up wood and prepositional phrases, dangled fish bait and participles, all with equal skill.

However, in the throes of the teenage malady, I gradually grew dissatisfied with this remote Eden. Although Native Texans, our family had spent 4 years in Ohio. (Since YankeeLand is technically in the same country, no visa or inoculations are required to move there. However, as far as Texans are concerned, YankeeLand is a foreign country and travelers should update their cultural resistance immunization before spending any significant time there.) Nothing can stop the onslaught of adolescence, but perhaps my parents had hoped that my first 8 years in Ft. Worth were sufficient to inoculate me against Northern Influences. Unknown to them, I contracted the germs of a companion disease during my 4 years of Yankee Exile.

In the North, I watched in fascination as hippies and flower power bloomed around me, mesmerized by Peter Max, paisley, and psychedelic posters, too young to participate. I arrived in Fred seemingly intact. But, as the symptoms of adolescence surfaced they triggered the dormant 60's-counter-culture virus, which in turn sprouted in this unlikely garden.

Fred was no place for a would-be flower child seeking sympathetic flora. The British Invasion of the 17th century took over 100 years to reach East Texas. As I surveyed Fred I suspected it would take the second British Invasion - the Beatles, the Rolling Stones, Led Zeppelin - at least that long to reach me.

My distinguishing features, combined with my growing detachment, separated me from the culture short of complete social isolation. Consequently, I remained on the outside looking in, spending most of my teenage years observing rather than participating.

But I guess I should start at the beginning.